Lights Of The 602: "Within the world"

Within The World.
In a city, bigger than you and me. We're all searching for the same thing, validation.

We all have different paths in life, were all different, but we all share one thing in common, the selfish need for validation. 

Are you good enough?

Am I good enough?

What is "good enough"?

Why do we have to be "good enough"?

Were so busy trying to be good enough for everyone else, we forget who we are, we lose ourselves in the midst of the world.
For me, it's hard not to lose myself in the midst of everything, as I'm sure it is the same for you.
Society creates all these expectations, all these rules, that we must meet, that we must follow. You are always expected of something. And that is something I never understood, always had trouble accepting.
My grandmother before she passed used to always tell me I had "free soul", she use to tell me that I wasn't like the others, that everywhere I went I will always outshine the others, she use to tell me that no one could save me from me but me. I took that in, but i never understood what she meant, til I got older. I can now see what she meant. I'm not your regular girl from next door.
 I see society as a bubble, and I'm like the girl standing outside of it, questioning it. I am a free soul, I wander around, my mind goes to places further than earth, to the inexplicable. I stopped looking for validation in other people, and started finding within myself. Stopped  asking myself if I was good enough and started believing I was more than good enough. I know I don't fit in with society, with everyone else, I know i'm different than the usual. I question the rules of society, society as a whole, why things are the way they are, and why things that don't work keep being the way they are. But I don't know if I will ever get the answers to my questions. And I hope to whoever is reading this, maybe no one, I just hope you feel worthy withing yourself, I hope you don't feel the need for a validation in anyone else but yourself, I hope you are happy with who you are because you were created the way you are for a reason, you were created for a reason.

Teenage Fever: "The Devil's Laces"

I think fashion is such a cool way to express yourself. You can express yourself in so many different ways with fashion, you can express your creativity, your mood, your personality. I have been loving were fashion has been headed, and how carefree it's been, how we are bringing the 2000's vibe back. Fashion for me has become such a big thing, i fell in love with it, with all of it, with putting together an outfit, with buying new clothes and shoes, and thinking of the endless possibilities I could do with them, the different ways I can use them. But a major thing and definitely my favorite thing is shoes, in my opinion your shoes make or break your outfit. Your shoes say a lot about you, in my opinion, of course they don't define who you are, but they do represent you. Here I will show you some of my favorite sneakers of 2017.

 A fashion icon, A$AP ROCKY wearing some Old Skool vans with yellow laces.

                                                                                     

Vapormaxes

Balenciaga RAF Simmons

OFF-WHITE x Air Jordan 1 retro high.

 Pharell x NMD 'Human Race'

Teenage Fever:"2017 in Melodies"

A letter to 2017,

2017, you were a game changer for me. You, rose me high and tumbled me down. You, were full of accomplishments, blessings, heartbreaks, disappointments, but most of all good memories. The good always out ways the bad, and I believe everything happens for a reason, I believe there is a higher more powerful energy, the universe, which makes all this things happen.
You, definitely shaped me into a new person, there's been times where the only thing I wanted to do was to give up. I've grown to be more matured, I've grown to understand things I used to not understand, I've learned to love, I've learned to let go, I've learned many things. And I thank you for that.
I'm ready to leave you behind, as much as you hold of my heart, as much as I would like to go back and do things differently, or even relive some nights. I'm ready to move on, i'm ready to create new memories, i'm ready to accomplish more and bigger things, i'm ready to let go of you, 2017. Here's a music playlist full of songs, that will always remind me of you, full of songs that will always make me reminisce of you.

https://open.spotify.com/user/12123083631/playlist/1cAatkSY1mUvOo6uWWoJFR?si=UkH4y8wE

A Lover Without A Lover: "A Letter To The One Who Got Away"

A Letter To The One Who Got Away:

You will always be the one who got away, you will always have a piece of me no one will ever be able to replace. Our love story... one of my favorites, quite odd, kind of quirky but definitely better than Cinderella. The kind of love story, artist write songs about and author's write books of. But you got away, and I let you. You're the type of person, I know I will only meet once in my life. I don't know what it is, I don't know what you done to me, to have me so strung. 

Where did it all go wrong? Tell me, because I still can't seem to understand. You still call me, tell me to visit you, and whisper sweet nothings into my ears, you tell me everything you think I wanna hear. Man, I can't put my thought's into words, guess that ain't saying right.

Oh love, i need to feel your essence in my presence. There's so much I want to say here, that I would never be brave enough to tell you, but I can't.

Oh boy, you will always be my boy, you will always be my forever and always.

Lights In The 602: "The City Through Her Eyes"

The City Through Her Eyes:

In a city, where worries shine brighter than the lights, where the expectations are higher than the tallest buildings, where life moves faster than cars on the freeway, she walks, with a head full of empty thoughts. In the city, she feels lost in, the home that isn't home, the city she don't belong in. Phoenix the motherland of all that she is, but not all that she will be. But for now, she rides along.  She is the type of girl, that you don't meet everyday, she is the type of girl whose uniqueness is more unique than unique. She's the type of girl to talk and believe in the universe, she is out of the ordinary, not like any other girl. She is summertime fine but wintertime cold .I like to think she is the type of girl to hold her own, she is independent, an overachiever. She is the type of girl that gets hurts by the one she loves, because she is naive. She has a heart of gold, but it breaks like glass.
But once you see the city, through her eyes, you'll understand the girl.
Her eyes, the color of the cold dark nights in the wintertime, they see the city as what it is, not for what it could be.  She sees the tallest o

Top 10 Thoughts Right Now

         Top 10 Thoughts Right Now.

         My head is usually filled with millions of thoughts, all rushing in second at a time. Yet I can't
         seem to spill any on this blank page. I know i'm thinking about it to hard, but I know if I don't
         think about it hard enough, this post wouldn't be me. Here goes nothing, yet here a little bit of                 something.
       
       
      1.  Time really doesn't mean anything.

      2.  Why is it that love hurts so much, why is it that the thing that's supposed to make you the
             happiest, makes you the saddest.
   
     3.  I believe there's an energetic divine soulmate bond you have with someone and it will never
           be the same with anyone else.

     
    4. I'm obsessed with the idea of being the girl that leaves her
         city once she's done with school, to never be heard again
        & live her best life with her soulmate, alone.

    5.  To him: You're the best mistake, I ever had.

    6.  Sometimes I don't mean to be so emotionally disconnected
        but I just can't help it.

    7.  I think sometimes we win and sometimes we learn. but we never lose. losers lose. eliminate the losers mentality.

   8. For me talking about someone u love is like a never ending
       conversation about how you fell in love w them or how badly you can't wait to hold their hands in the most innocent way possible.

 9. I'm writing all these thoughts, you know trying to fill this blank page. But I can't help and look on to the right side, the picture of this girl. There's no particular reason on to why I choose it, just caught my eye. You know, the yellow and all? but this girl, I don't know what it is, but she seems sad, and I ask myself why would she be sad when she's surrounded by such a beautiful color. But then I thought to myself, and as why such a beautiful color, couldn't make a sad soul happy,  and it all made sense.

10. I wish I could wake up in a field of flowers with my luver while soothing melodies play in the background. I don't know just a thought.